Thursday, January 7, 2016
The year I accidentally quit blogging
its been awhile.
Im currently, in the back of my head, working on my list of what I'll remember from 2015 and what Im hoping for in 2016. (per usual - after the new year)
A few people have brought up my blog to me lately. One person, being my husband, said he felt like it was time for me to blog again. Though that sounds more intentional than I think he meant it.. when a few other people brought it up as well it got me thinking.
(note, add to 2015 list - the year that I learned about myself that I think NON STOP .. like I never stop thinking about things.. which sounds normal, right? But after multiple discussions I have realized I generally think and keep thinking and continue thinking about things and then I think about them a little bit more when other people probably stopped thinking about the right after the conversation we had. So, 2015 - the year I learned Im a thinker - at age 32. Bout time)
Ive been thinking for about the last 6 months why I stopped blogging and more specifically why I haven't shared more about our journey being foster parents. I *think* I know the answer to this. Ha. Most of it I'm still chewing on though.
Overall I know this last year was more of a silent year for me. I remember the Lord saying my influence was going to be in my home and with our daughters Biological mom last year. I didnt really get it because I never saw my influence outside of that. (meaning - I didnt see my blog as a place of influence) But what I realize is that my time and attention and thoughts and energy have all gone to those things this last year. So its where my influence ended up being.
It was an intense year. Caring for a child who has high needs and never sleeps and has many mountains to climb while juggling our normal - busy - husband is a resident - we have 4 kids - blah blah blah life was intense.
Im happy to report, I feel on the other side of that now. (in most ways) But when I think through the Lord telling me where my influence was to go at the end of 2014 .. I now see what he meant. It was a year I could really only put out things for our family and outside of that I didnt have near as much to give. It was a great year - though intense and hard. On the other side it always feels worth it.
We're still foster parents - still hoping to adopt baby girl - and thinking it will happen in 2016. Our kids are all still growing and crazy and rambunctious and wonderful and more adorable than ever. Freeland is in his 4th year of residency and half way through it already - currently applying for fellowships. I cooked a meal every night of the week this last week - so seems Im growing too. (wink)
There is so much to update Im sure.. seeing as I only posted 3 times in 2015 and my last post was in March.. and Im pretty sure it was just pictures from the kids starting school the previous August?
Hopefully I can find time and once again start getting all these thoughts out on to here. If not, hopefully I can at least just post some pictures for our family to see since their all still crazy far from us.
I just saw the clock and its time for me to go get River (so many thoughts on this as well .. him being in kindergarten and such. see - so much to write out. But I have to hop off now.
Peace n blessins.
For now, here are some more pictures from this fall (Sami Renee Photography did them)
(both girls are in this picture if you can spy the little foot hanging out)